You Must Be Patient, Young Grasshopper

You Must Be PatientYou Must Be Patient, Young Grasshopper

It’s hard to believe that another month flew by. Oh, who am I kidding?! This was one of the “fullest” months ever – emotionally and physically. So busy in fact, that I’m just now sitting down to write my monthly review. (Yes, six days late… but whatever.)

Are you ready? Here goes…

A Month in Review
April brought a lot of self-expression, rest and relaxation, and family bonding time. I took a break from photography jobs, volunteering and social obligations. My theme for the month of April was “Process and Nurture.” Mission accomplished!

Because my emotions change so many times throughout the day, it’s really difficult to plan anything beyond the present. And, me, well, I’m a planner. So, this is pretty new to me. But, it’s the reality right now… and I’m learning to accept that, for the most part.

When I find myself stressing out about the next tomorrow, or month or year, I try my best to refocus on the here and now.

The biggest benefits of this are that I’m learning to take it day by day, and allowing myself time to heal. The downside is that my ability to see beyond the present is hindered….

Lack of passion, emotional detachment and desperation for change existed prior to losing my dad. Now, it’s more intense. Post-tragedy, my gut instinct has been to take a time-out from any forward movement, big decisions and extraneous commitments beyond family, 9-to-5 job and mind-body-spirit. As a result, things like my photography business, volunteering and planning my next move have been placed on the back-burner. It’s pretty funny, because my theme for 2013 was “loving, trusting FORWARD MOVEMENT.” I envisioned that to encompass physical forward movement. Now, or at least at this point, it seems to be solely the intangible.

Growing Pains
The core lesson right now is to embrace the present. Wherever I’m at. I know that my inner-child feels trapped right now, stuck indoors for most of the day under shitty fluorescent lighting. She wants to run free under a big open sky. Her version of “embracing the present” isn’t starring at a computer screen all day long. She wants to call the shots for herself and her life. She knows that her current situation is no longer serving her. But, she has to patiently wait it out. Because, right now, big decisions aren’t conducive to healing.

Patience seems to be the name of the game. I believe it’s the core lesson beneath all of this struggle that I’m enduring at this moment in time. They say slow and steady wins the race. I’ve never been very patient, but I recognize the value in exercising patience. If I could master the art of patience, I believe I might just get ahead after all. I certainly wouldn’t struggle nearly as much. In order to heal during this grieving process, I must focus on the here and now. Whatever I’m feeling. I have no other choice. So, I guess you could say, that I will definitely become more patient. Perhaps, that’s the key to the forward movement I set out to achieve.

Theme for May: Patience

What About My Photography?
Oh, it’s still as important as it’s ever been… But, for right now, at this very moment in time, I’m focusing on photography without an agenda. I intentionally kept my schedule clear of any client bookings for right now, as I take a much needed pause. I think this just proves how much I care about my clients. They deserve my FULL attention, and right now I’m unable to offer that. But soon I will be able to and, when I do, I’ll be back to business!!

You can look forward to seeing a lot of personal work. Just this past weekend, I went up to one of my favorite soul retreats in Mount Charleston. And, next weekend, I will be taking photos for my cousin and her new family.

I can’t wait to show you some of my latest work! Stay tuned, ladies and gents…

Gina Mizzoni is a writer and photographer, living in the beautiful deserts of Las Vegas. For her, it’s all about the journey. She enjoys documenting the truth in people and places, and raising awareness for the beauty within and around us. You can learn more about Gina Mizzoni on her blog, Vegas Evolve. For more information about Gina Mizzoni Photography, check out About, FAQs and Investment. To view Gina Mizzoni’s work, please see Galleries.